It Started in January 2020 in Sweden. Until now May 2021 I was lucky enough to have avoided being infected and I was always careful, worked from home , avoided contact and followed all the rules about restrictions and still one and a half year after, I got infected.
It started 12 days ago I got very sick,  spent three nights and days in my bed and after that it was up-and-down with difficulties breathing, fortunately I didn’t require hospital care and I’m very thankful for it but believe me, this will make you think you are dying, the only fact that you cannot breathe normally,  the slight feeling of not being able to breathe fully is very difficult to deal with.
Still today After 12 days, my throat is still hurting, I am very tired and I feel very weak but the breathing is normal which lifts a very big load on how I feel in general.  I think that what is worse is not the fact that you’re sick, it feels like a very bad flu and everything in the body is hurting but the breathing is making you think that you’re gonna die or not wake up or need to call an ambulance in the middle of the night, this is the true horrible feeling of that virus.

A lot of people are in need of emergency care and that could happen to you very easily, knowing that , the panic and the depression are adding to the mix. 

Like any other serious medical condition, it makes you think about your life and what is important ,the difference with this virus is the isolation, the fact that you are so isolated that you cannot meet anybody, you cannot go out, it makes you feel very alone and if you end up at the hospital you know that nobody would be able to visit,  this is a horrible feeling.

During those days I could think a lot about things, about what I’ve done in my life before, the experiences that I had, the things that I am very happy about and of course my JKD time , my experience,  my trips to the States,  the people that I’ve met.

So for you people out there, don´t think you are safe because you have not had it yet and even if some people have a mild version of it, please know that it can give you long term problems and get back even months later.

I feel better now but still I am not back to normal , I still can´t go out I still don´t feel well at all, some people have gotten better and all of a sudden several months after, they get symptoms back, some even have been sick for a year , so I am taking this seriously and I feel sad because there is nothing different I have done from the past year, I have been careful all the time and I still got it, that makes me feel very helpless.

be safe everyone out there

Last time I wrote was about the topic that has haunted me for a year , PAIN ! I have not spent a single day without it since then. Only now it seems doctors finally sent me to the right treatment process , just had an MRI and a new physician working deeper on muscle level. So all this to say, I can´t wait to start training again and we will get back with some news about summer training real soon.

Mikael has already talked to our guys and hopefully we can meet outside in a couple of months.

It is no surprise that we miss our training but also because of this Covid situation, it is more obvious that we miss contacts and people we used to train with.

So even if I won´t be able to be my usual crazy self at training, I will be very happy to do whatever I can during the next training session.

Welcome back JKD Sweden, see you in the summer

Training martial arts has taught me to deal with pain, we train hard and hard means until it hurts , until you can´t stand anymore.

I miss that! That kind of pain is so rewarding, it means you have tested your body, it means you have harden your body and your mind. Hard training is  improvement  and a part of the journey .

Pain from injury is playing with your mind if you let it win it will destroy your spirit and your life! This is what I feel right now, I am so tired of it , I feel sad and helpless. I have not been pain free since December 26^th , my tolerance level is getting lower , I know I can´t let this put me down but right now frankly all I want is go to bed and sleep it off.

I met with my physiotherapist yesterday and she warned me that I would feel more pain today , I have inflamed muscles in the back of my shoulder and in the neck and today everything hurts,  I can almost not stand at work.

I know it is worse today , only to get better later but it is very difficult to deal with and I need to be stronger and get my spirit up .

I know that a positive attitude will speed up the healing process, the mind plays a part in it of course  but it is also OK to let the body handle some of it, doing stupid things won´t help either.

I am listening to my physiotherapist who told me to move as much as possible but not to the point I hurt myself.

I will meet her twice a week  and she said I already did a good job with the rotation exercises I have done by myself before my appointment,  so it is very positive.

For what I feel right now I just have to suck it up and “walk on “ , just like Bruce did when he hurt his back .

Here is some much needed motivation, this is From Bruce Lee.Com:

“Walk on.” There’s a story behind this famous quote. In 1969, Bruce severely injured his back during a routine training session because he didn’t warm up properly. He was told he could never practice martial arts again and may never walk normally. Devastated by this news, Bruce became a researcher of his injury, his body and ultimately created his own path to healing. The journey was long and there were many ups and downs. At one point he took one of his business cards and wrote “Walk on” on the back. He put this card where he could see it to remind him every day to move forward with his recovery. No matter what anyone else said, he would always “Walk on.”

Happy New Year 2020

Let 2020 start strong ! well 2019 did not end well,  I was diagnosed with a frozen shoulder*  on christmas day,  this is the least to say a VERY painful state !

I did not do anything special it came just like that all of a sudden.The pain started  in the evening of christmas day and the next  morning it was still there and  it went from bad to worse during the day  so at the end of it I could not move my arm anymore. I could not sit or stand or lay down, I could not sleep and I could not do anything with one arm as it is of course affecting my right arm. The emergency doctor told me the shoulder was inflammed and I got some serious painkillers and anti inflamation medicine for that, which my stomac rejected almost immediately , so I went  back and got new medicine which worked better.

Now  14 days went by, I can move my arm and use it to some extend but I cannot train for a while. I was so pleased last year with my training and was looking forward to some more improvements, now this puts a stop to it for an unknown period of time.

I have physiotherapy sessions to improve the movement in my shoulder, it is very important to use it as much as possible to provide the inflamation from coming back.  I am also looking for possible causes  and will change some things about my training at the gym, my position at work and even at home. Good news is that the light is on its way back to Sweden now,  this makes the days longer and the possibility to go out more. Moving is the key,  if I can´t train JKD or lift weights I can do something else, walking is one of them , the arm pendles on the side and makes the shoulder joint rotate and move gently, running is not recommended for me right now.

So 2020 started with a problem but I won´t let that be the theme of this year ! the theme will be  “if you knock me down I will get back up !!!”

Happy New Year to my readers , all the Best for you and your families .

*Some facts about frozen shoulder :

Frozen Shoulder is a condition that affects your shoulder joint. It usually involves pain and stiffness that develops gradually, gets worse and then finally goes away. This can take anywhere from a year to 3 years.

The main symptoms of a frozen shoulder are pain and stiffness that make it difficult or impossible to move it.

You’ll typically go through three phases with a frozen shoulder. Each has its own unique symptoms and timeline.

Freezing stage:

• You develop a pain (sometimes severe) in your shoulder any time you move it.
• It slowly gets worse over time and may hurt more at night.
• This can last anywhere from 6 to 9 months.
• You’re limited in how far you can move your shoulder.

Frozen stage:

• Your pain might get better but your stiffness gets worse.
• Moving your shoulder becomes more difficult and it becomes harder to get through daily activities.
• This stage can last 4-12 months.

Thawing stage:

• Your range of motion starts to go back to normal.
• This can take anywhere from 6 months to 2 years.

Causes

It’s not clear why some people develop it, but some groups are more at risk. Frozen shoulder happens more often in women than men, and you’re more likely to get it if you’re between the ages of 40 and 60.