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2016…

It was not a good year.

Early January I learnt about my mother´s terminal disease, in April she passed away. She had been sick for a year and they did not tell me about it, not to worry me or to disturb my life they said, but I feel like I was left aside and did not get the chance to be there for her, to help her, to spend time with her and to show her how important she was to me. I have heard similar behaviors from a lot of people living abroad away from their families, I have a hard time accepting it, even if I know it was to protect me, it took away some precious moments I could have shared with her.

While I am dealing with that and the fact that I feel guilty because if I had not been living far away I would not have been left aside, I must also live with grief and I need to understand that she won´t be there when I go back home next time.

I was on her death bed, they called me the day before and I took the first flight to France , I could be there a few hours before she passed,  I sat beside her bed holding her hand but she was never conscious and I will never know if she knew I was there.

There are so many things I feel I should have said and done, I thought I had time , I thought she would live many more years and I certainly was not ready for this. For me who did not know,  it took 3 months,  unlike the rest of the family who had 1 year with her from the time they knew about the cancer.

 

Now I have to live with this and go on but it is always easier said than done , until you experience the loss of a mother you can´t understand what it feels like.

 

I have not set a foot in a training room this year, I have not set a foot outside on my balcony this summer, and living in Sweden believe me you are waiting for the summer for months and you get out as much as you can while you can!

I have not done anything at all this summer, I stayed in my apartment most of the time watching movies. I allowed myself to grieve, I allowed myself the time it took but I know I can´t go on like this because it is starting to affect my health. Now because of inactivity,  I get back and neck problems, to the point that my doctor said I should wait until I get back to training. Inactivity is affecting my body and my mind and I need to get back on track soon.

 

For those who have read my blog, at the beginning I am talking about how JKD changed my life and how training has made me a better person. I have tried to find these feelings again but I could not get to  feel that again this passed year.

I am not making a new year resolution,  this is just ridiculous to me , I am taking the decision to not let my grief take me down to the point I can´t get back up. The whole point with JKD is to not get down but if you do,  get the hell back up as soon as you can and soon is now.

 

 

 

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Posted by on 21 December, 2016 in My own training

 

November 27th, 1940 Chinatown, San Francisco

No surprise for all fans, this is Bruce Lee´s birth date,  he would have turned 76 this year.

I feel blessed to have visited the hospital and almost entered the room where he was born before they destroyed the Chinese hospital for reconstruction.

I am always thinking about how far he would have come considering the amazing path he took towards success and self accomplishment.

One thing is certain, some people would run for their life if he was alive today !

I have already talked about how I came to know about Bruce Lee the actor and what impact he had on my life later on when I started with JKD so I won´t repeat that again.

I just want to point that no matter where you go, and how old you are, Bruce Lee is still known 43 years after his death , how is that for an accomplishment !

Let´s celebrate his life and be thankful for what he left us.

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Posted by on 1 December, 2016 in Lee and Friends

 

November 24th, 2010

We were in San Francisco for the first time but we almost did not make it, here is the story:

On Nov 22nd, 2010 We caught our first flight from Stockholm,  they were not sure about my French passport and they called someone who told them it was Ok but at the arrival in Switzerland after passing all controls, we were in the line to board the plane, one woman from Swiss Air I think,  came to me and took my passport from my hand and went away with it, then she looked at me with her colleagues and laughed ,  she came back to me and told me ” you´re not flying” turned to Mikael and said” you are flying , she is not ” this extremely rude  woman thought it was very funny  and apparently enjoyed her power very much,  my French passport  was still valid but of an older model which was not accepted for the US anymore, they should have stopped me in Stockholm .

They sent us back to Stockholm same day. I went to work the day after having just given up on that trip. Oh well it was just a first time in the US, in San Francisco where Bruce Lee was born, it was just to meet Ted Wong, Allen Joe, Linda Lee, and some of the actors who played in Bruce´s movies and a number of international JKD practitioner…. well it was just a dream trip that I was losing just like that.

But the day after at work everyone was so shocked that I was there, they told me I could not possibly pass on this trip, they would even help me if I needed but I just had to go. It was so nice of them and I was so sad and disappointed, I talked to Mikael and we decided to try to catch first flight, the hotel was still available so we did, we flew again on Nov 24th .

I pass on all the details from the room that had disappeared when we arrived, the luggage that did not make it back, my card for Bruce Lee 70th birthday that was not displayed with the others and so on … Minor details !

Here is what´s important,  it was such a joy to meet Allen again, “my favorite French girl” he called me :-),   Bruce Lee´s  birthday  celebration was very nice, we even got a tour in SF with Jeff Chinn,  meeting Linda was a big thing for me, so big I could not talk ! I felt so stupid afterwards because I might never meet her again  but the whole experience was priceless, we were so happy. During dinner we asked for Ted, Allen told us he was not well and that he would get back to us as soon as he had some news.

This is not before we were back to Sweden that we got the news. Ted had passed this day we finally made it on the second flight. It was sudden and unexpected for us who did not know about his condition, we have missed him since then.

I had not met him a lot, first time was in 2005 same day I met Mikael for the first time, that day changed my whole life.

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Rest in Peace Sifu Ted, until we meet again.

 
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Posted by on 24 November, 2016 in Instructors

 

San Francisco

This weekend, if you have the possibility ,  check this out .

Too bad we are not travelling to SF this year 😦

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Posted by on 21 November, 2016 in Various Topics

 

Jun Fan Jeet Kune DO training information

My blog is about my training and my personal life experience linked to Jeet Kune Do,  I am not an instructor and I am not responsible for the Jeet Kune do training in Sweden.

I have received questions on MSN that I just discovered, some of them are one year old, unfortunately I did not see them and I could not send them to the instructor.

For quicker answer please contact the instructor directly :

egideus@live.se

 

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Posted by on 11 October, 2016 in Instructors

 

“Birth of the dragon” is a fraude ?

Wow, the reviews are out and  I am really disappointed ! Here are some of them that I read in the papers today:

“Hollywood is racist. This movie disrespects the legacy of Bruce Lee. I highly recommend everyone to boycott this movie. The movie serves to perpetuate negative stereotypes regarding Asian women, men, and the culture.”

“This entire film is a carefully hidden propaganda piece that portrays Lee as some unsexual, angry, kung fu loser who accomplishes nothing.”

“I wanted to watch a movie about the legend Bruce lee. Not another white washed movie deleting/altering/hiding his history and Again disrespecting Asians with another white male Asian female interest. Truth is movies spread lies and it hurts societies. In this case. Asian men.”

and it goes on and on…

 

Knowing that Shannon a a total control over Bruce Lee´s name, how could  this movie be approved is a mistery to me…

Of course this is just another guy trying to make money on Bruce Lee´s name , no question about that.

 
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Posted by on 6 October, 2016 in Lee and Friends

 

Why is Bruce Lee still alive?

 

Talking about his spirit of course 🙂

I recently talked to a young colleague from Switzerland, she is 29 years old and when I asked: “do you know who Bruce Lee is?” she said “of course”. She was born in 1987, 14 years after Bruce´s passing and has absolutely no relation to martial arts whatsoever, so where does it come from? The name, everybody knows that name, isn´t that incredible?

I was born in 1972 and as long as I can remember I was hearing about Bruce Lee. As a child I saw the movies again and again and as a teenager I had my room covered with Bruce Lee posters. He was the ultimate fighter,  the superhero of my childhood and still is.

No matter what, I will always admire the man, the actor and the martial artist. It is no wonder we still know him, we still talk about him, refer to him and make movies about him, this is what a true legend is all about.

His passing was a tragedy and I really don´t care about the how and the why, what I think is that it was way too soon, it would have been so interesting to see how far he would have gone, what he would have become, this is a shame we did not get more time, I think we could have learned a lot more from him.

But we need to remember what he left us and this needs to be treasured. How the legacy is used by some people can be questionable but I really think it is great to see that he is still remembered and not only by martial arts people.

Walk On !

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Posted by on 5 October, 2016 in Lee and Friends