When I started training JKD I had a tendency to want to be good already at the beginning, I was impatient and immature .
Together with JKD I had to learn to behave mentaly. This was another hard part but a part of the training is the control of the behaviour and attidude . I have to say that this took quite a while . This was leading to decreasing motivation for me. ” I can´t do anything, I am worthless”.. or even ” I don´t want to train anymore I don´t deserve it” … bla bla bla …
“well stop complaining and do something about it” ! .. this is what I have heard numerous times. The right attidude was needed for me to be better, to want to be better and accept that a lot of training and time will be needed to get somewhere . If you want to be good at something you have to practice, that is all.
I left the bad childish thoughts behind me and I have accepted that I am here to learn and that it will take time. I am training with a great instructor, it is up to me to take all the tools he gives me and use them.
Some days I don´t feel like it, I am tired or stressed but as soon as I start, I feel better and the best of it is when I am finished , I feel good because I have achieved something, even if the session was hard or not so good , I have something to work on. That is how I get motivated those days.
In 2005 after the first day Seminar with Ted , as we were sitting at the bar before diner and he told me something about motivation. ” I train every day, some days if I don´t really feel like it, I just think about Bruce and then I just do it ”
And last year Ted became emotional when he told us : ” I am not doing that for myself, I am doing that for you, the next generation”.
How can we not be motivated. This is already a great priviledge to train Jun Fan JKD , Ted Wong JKD.
I am not talking for anyone else but me, I get the motivation from the fact that I truly think I have been given a great opportunity.
A lot of people do not get what JKD is all about and I don´t feel like I have to explain. My passion is personal and I only fully share it with my training partners and with myself.
Am I motivated to go on? of course, because training JKD makes me feel good on so many levels and I don´t need to prove or explain it to anyone. This is all about my personal achievement and depending on my own goals and expectations. What I am looking for is to get better according to my own goals.
I am the new generation, in a way I owe this to Bruce and to Ted.