Well I haven´t written for quite some time because I could not access my blog, this happens a lot and as I said before, there is no help to get from my blog provider. I have considered deleting it instead and start a new one but I have worked a lot on this and written many things over the years, I don´t want all this to desappear.

Yesterday at the gym I tried to lift more weights and I was thinking how it has taken one year for my shoulder to get better, this is ridiculous! The focus now is to get stronger and get myself some serious muscle mass. I know this will help me prevent injuries like this in the future. This is actually the main problem and the reason why I am injured all the time. I am not strong enough even if I am  tough, no strength means you have no business in Martial Arts. This is a set back for me, I had come a long way but I could never reach the next level and  this is why.

I can say I have worked a lot during the past months and I can see some difference. I am also getting educated on how to workout properly and I am constantly trying to get good  informations from different sources. Not only is it good to know what you are doing, it is also very interesting to learn how the body works.

A lot of women think they will transform into a man by lifting weights, well I will not give a course on that , there is a huge amount of information everywhere. Being strong and having a descent muscle mass is good for various reasons.

For information the person I am getting most of my information from is the Swedish Fitness Athlete Pauline Nordin.

http://fighterdiet.com/

How interesting , as soon as I start to write about how better I am,  I get worse! I can barely move these days.

I am supposed to write about my training and instead it is all about this injury and quite frankly this one starts to get on my nerves real bad!

So I am waiting for an Xray and will see what happens from here.

Anyway,  I am looking for a smaller punching bag right now. I had a really heavy one and it was very hard I could not move it when I needed to because it was bigger and heavier than me :-), it has now moved to our club, where it is no problem for the guys to handle. Mikael has arranged the club with training stations, it is good to be able to have this possibility as well and is easily put away for JKD class.

We are nevertheless waiting for the winter to go away so we can start our outdoor training. I can at least run and do other stuff as long as I don´t lift or push or punch. So honestly and seeing the positive aspect in all this , there is no reason why I should not train footwork like a beast right now 🙂 🙂 🙂

I am back !  the shoulder is much better. Never give up the hope that it will get better! Most of the time it is a mind game and even if I had dark times it was never a question whether I would always train JKD.

I have trained JKD since 2004 probably the only girl in sweden that has lasted so long and I am proud of it. Question is why? Well because of what it brings to my life and because of how it makes me feel, I don´t need recocgnition, I don´t get any anyway either than from my own instructor and this is all I need.

Our group has fought to get there and we are here to stay. How I plan to write my blog will maybe change a little from now on but me and Mikael are serious about our training and even if less information is going to come out, the training  is getting intensified. We feel it is not essential to share too much anymore, too bad but we have our reasons. nevertheless our JKD training is and remains! in Honour to our Sifu Ted.

My shoulder is getting better, I can now add some weights to the exercises the doctor gave me. Acupuncture is working well even if I did not think it would.

I started to train and can do most drills but I have to take it easy on the power and increase gradually. As soon as I start to feel it in the shoulder I just have to stop.

I will have to do that until I get back to normal but that is good to be able to do anything at all, I am happy about that!

PS : in case anyone wonder about that Bloody white square coming after all my posts, it is something my blog provider has no interest in fixing , if I was paying for that blog I would for sure get a better service!

Oh well, That was my ” bitching” moment,  let´s move on

Have a nice day 🙂

Let this year be a good training year!

My shoulder is still not good, I have trained last Wednesday and even though I was very careful and only did a few drills on mitts, I paid for it the rest of the week. The doctor says I should take it easy but I don´t think I can stay inactive anymore,  I have to take myself back into the game one way or another.

I have felt bad and sorry for myself for months and let the injury dictate my life , what good did that do? So at the end, it is only a question of how I manage the situation, not the other way around.

I have left the bad spirit back in 2013 and start the New Year with a new attitude. 

Happy new year !

Earlier this week I met with a doctor and a personal trainer, both say no to training…

This is no good news but no surprise either. I will have to focus on everything else but the right side, this is tough and my strong side will suffer from it, my whole training will suffer from it, but I will have to suck it up ,  I can´t just sit and do nothing anymore because it is starting to get to me real bad both mentally and physically.

The personal trainer told me she thought it would be better to stop all together because it is not the first time I injure the same side and I could end up with permanent damage. I answered “I wonder what Bruce Lee would think about that!”. No really it is difficult to understand for people outside the JKD world so I did not try too hard to explain but there is always a way and I will find mine.

After last session a month ago I complained about muscle soreness which seemed to take longer than usual, today after 4 weeks I still can´t use my arm and it is because of a deeper problem, I actually have nerve damage and muscle inflamation. I feel pain constantly and cannot do anything with the right arm at all. The doctor says no training at least until I start to feel an improvement.I am going to work on my lower body instead for a while as soon as I don´t feel the tension in my back anymore.

It is very frustrating, this is always a major problem for me, I am going to loose my muscle mass again and my JKD is going to suffer from it, one more time! I have been there before and I know how this is affecting me. Even if I have trained JKD for 9 years now I don´t have the pretention to say I am good enough to take a break and get back just where I was, I know the work this is going to take afterwards and it feels like I am taking some steps back, that really bothers me.

I always try to stay positive but this is a part of a journey and the meaning of this blog, describe my feelings and experiences. I am in a pretty bad phase right now, my mission is to take myself back up again.

Yesterday after a mild hit on the head I felt a pain in my neck down to the middle of my back , nothing I haven´t felt before, I get this sometimes. Anoying and painful and I feel tired because of it but I know it will get better,  I am getting help with it it,  should be fine soon.

Micke on the other side got a real workout yesterday as Mikael tried to push him a little harder, he knows when people have more to give and have a tendency to give up to soon, this is why he pushed him a little more this time. Only good if you ask me, I know that by experience. So I felt sad I could not participate but I will next time.

one of the most common problems is to be stiff and stressed, too concentrated or thinking to much, achieving relaxation and control without showing it too much is not an easy task. I noticed that I and even some other people like Will after a while became more relaxed and by that the technique looks better. Sometimes trying too much is not the way there are things we need to accept such as IT TAKES TIME ! Noone will be good at it in just a couple of years.

For my part I have trained with Mikael for 8 years now and I still have a long way to go but I don´t get depressed because I know what it takes and perseverence is for those who really want it so if after 8 years I am still here it must be because I want it  for real ! 🙂

Nobody showed at last training session so I had my instructor all for myself ! I went through the punches and kicks tehnique to finish with rounds on the heavy bag. I was  not feeling at my best because I have been sick, I did not have too much energy so I said I would not stress myself too much and I felt no pressure,  this is where I noticed I get better when I am relaxed !

That was the theme of the wednesday session! at first I worked on technique on mitts, punches and kicks, then Mikael took a long stick and that was the real beginning of the session.

I had to punch above the stick without touching , with right technique and extension, the height  gradually increased and I also had to increse tempo. Same exercise with all kicks and both sides.

Then uppercuts from side to side also moving forward and backwards, that was hard on the legs and to finish me off I had to jump over the stick from side to side and with movement back and forth when I could not do it anymore Mikael just put the stick on the floor and I had to jump until I dropped!

This is very hard but good for the balance and the elasticity,  it is like jumping rope but harder.

I definetely need more of that, Mikael said I did good but I  will  do better next time!