oh WOW!!! how ridiculous can become even more ridiculous ? now it is getting almost funny,  there are some really dum heads out there, better leave them where they are , my god !

By trying to create some kind of structure , it has created total chaos BUT what is really important here ? well me and my training partners, my real friends and number one MY training, so I took two minutes of my time reading a creepy forum, that is about all the time I will allow myself to loose on that .

Now, let´s focus on what´s important again.

I was quite happy with the fact I could train almost normally at the seminar but  I knew I would pay for that. It is worse now and the health care system in Sweden being a total joke,  I won´t get any doctor appointment for that. I guess I have to suck up the pain that I have all day long everyday and night,  it has now been 3 weeks.

I have learnt a lesson again,  same as in my private life, I will not let anyone hurt me again , not in that way. I will train harder on footwork to avoid people taking me down, this is a real motivation right here.

I have been suffering physically for three weeks and don´t even know how long it is gonna take, this can´t happen to me again.

Next week Micke and I will leave for San Francisco where we´ll meet Jeff Chinn and I hope, Allen Joe . Great times to come !

That is for sure, being injured is no funny stuff, whenever and however it happens. The real fighter spirit is getting on your feet again and not giving up. I have been really mad and sad and cannot really get over it but  this shows only one thing, how important training is to me.

I cannot let this destroy me, I will have to start dealing with it in another way, finding how I can make it better and train anyway.

Sure I have trained anyway but I cannot train like normal with my arm and after that the pain is worse, but as we know,  no one  is more stubborn than the french frog!

I have not been able to train at all this week, my arm is still not good and there is no improvement there, my leg and neck on the other side are getting much better.

I am really upset to have been reduced to do nothing for a whole week. I have to start training my arm in a way or another now, with light weights and see how it goes, I will be extremely upset if I cannot participate to Mike´s seminar with all I got , if I have to hold back and pass on certain exercises because of my injury I will be really disappointed.

This is very unfortunate and should not have happenned. 

I cannot handle being forced to not train for a whole week and I really hope this won´t take any longer.

There are some days I wonder why,  how and …WHY ?!!! I am injured and this is the worst timing ever ! two weeks before Mike´s seminar and this is the time I should be training hard in order to be at my best but instead my back and neck hurt so much I can barely walk and move my right arm. I am sad,  I am disappointed, I am mad.

Using unconventional methods  from everything but JKD during sparring sessions is not the best move for sure but what is worse really ? The worst is that I was not able to get myself out, I got strangled and my arm almost broke and I was just stuck without being able to do anything, I did not break the fight because I am so stupid I don´t want to, I don´t want to be the one giving up, which is stupid because what did I get from it now? and it could have been worse.

This is of course a lesson, sparring is tough and I got hurt before , this time was a bit different because our new friend did not do JKD and frankly I don´t understand what the point was actually,  but I am hurt and I am angry , not at him but at myself ,  I won´t be able to train and I don´t know for how long , I should have been able to handle this in a better way.

In the streets I will never be attacked by a JKD person, I can bet on this so this is the point ! Bruce came up with the style in order to be able to handle anything and anyone, if I can´t after 6 years really what am I doing here?

the question is why I train JKD I think I just answered the question , I think it is the most complete style and I love it, I would never think about training anything else, the fact that I am so hard on myself is what makes me persevere, I am not a quitter and If I get injured like that again I will kick my own ass.

As soon as I get better I will have to find a way to train more efficiently, I cannot let my weight and size be an advantage for the opponent, I cannot let myself get hurt again , people trying ugly tricks on me will regret it next time 🙂